May 15, 2011

The Tell Tale Heart

When we were given The Tell-Tale Heart, I didn’t think of The Simpsons’ episode, but rather the Arthur episode, and the Spongebob episode about the squeaky boots. Regardless of which animated show I thought of, I had never read it, much less analyzed it.
Do I think the narrator is crazy? A bit. I don’t really think you can kill without being the slightest bit mad. The killing was so methodical that you’d think that he wasn’t, but sometimes the most methodical are the maddest. But then don’t you have to be crazy to hear the beating of a heart of a dead person? And who is he talking to anyways? I sort of feel that he’s talking to someone he truly cares about because he’s explaining why and keeps repeating that he’s not crazy. If I did something like this, I feel like I would talk like this to my family. I’m really not sure where to go with this though, because I fear that I am sounding crazy, and believe me, I’m usually not. So… the end.

May 2, 2011

Short Story

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As the crisp summer sky turned his favorite shade of auburn, Wilson sat on the planks of wood in front of his home fiddling with his matchbook. Wilson was especially aware this evening. There were hundreds of ants flocking to a dropped ice cream cone three sidewalk squares over. Four squares in the opposite direction he noticed a rainbow drawn in chalk. He heard an ambulance blaring its sirens as it rushed to the nearby hospital. Wilson checked the time on his phone, 7:32. He got up, and began to walk.
Walking through the gangway seemed different than it usually did. He felt the homes were closer together than normal. Wilson stretched his arms wide open and was saddened when his fingers tips did not touch the grey bricks of both homes. The homes were no closer than normal. Wilson passed through the rusted green gate in which he had inscribed his name years before and slammed it shut. He walked through the backyard. He noticed a squirrel poking it’s head in the grill, looking for food. The blue tarp blocking off the hole of the house waved in the wind. Wilson walked right up to the old oak tree and climbed his way up to the tree house.
The horrid memories that the tree house held flooded his brain. Wilson remembered the cold nights he spent inside to escape the fighting inside the house. The whistle of the wind through the only window sent chills up his spine. The days where his father yelled that he was worthless and suggested he walk out the door and never come back overtook his memory.
That moment was when Wilson decided.
He climbed down the tree and stood at the base and dug deep inside his pocket and pulled out his matchbook. Ironically the matchbook was from the tavern his father spent the time he should have spending with Wilson. There were four matches left. He thought that if he went through with his plan he would never have to relive the pain again. That every time he looked out the back window of his home and saw nothing but grass he would feel peace. As he stuck a match he heard the rusted gate open, he quickly blew out the match.
A young boy walked into the backyard. He was about nine or ten years old, his shorts were covered in grass stains and both elbows had scabs the size of quarters.
“Whatcha doin’ mister?”
“Just checking out the ole tree house,” Wilson somewhat lied.
“Did you and your Dad build it?”
“When I was about your age, my Dad and I spent three days building this.”
“Well I was thinkin’, I just moved here, and I don’t have a Dad. Momma said he went away and ain’t never coming back. But if I had a Dad, I know he would build a tree house with me. And you look too old for a tree house anyways, so can I have yours?”
Wilson chuckled to himself, “Can you have my tree house?”
“Please?” the young boy asked with an infectious smile.
It might have been the smile of the boy, or the honesty that only kids of that age hold. It may have been the hope that the tree house could be filled with memories of joy instead of pain, or just a rash decision. But whatever it was, Wilson obliged.
“It’s yours kid,” was all Wilson could manage to say.
Emotions overwhelmed him, and what else was said only the little boy knows. Wilson dug inside his right pocket and pulled out his matchbook. He struck a match, leaving only two, and lit his cigarette. He sat smoking at the base of the old oak tree and admiring the auburn sky.

April 24, 2011

Intellectual Meaning of an American Song

Cats In The CradleHarry Chapin
My child arrived just the other day
He came to the world in the usual way
But there were planes to catch and bills to pay
He learned to walk while I was away
And he was talkin' 'fore I knew it, and as he grew
He'd say "I'm gonna be like you dad
You know I'm gonna be like you"

And the cat's in the cradle and the silver spoon
Little boy blue and the man on the moon
When you comin' home dad?
I don't know when, but we'll get together then son
You know we'll have a good time then

My son turned ten just the other day
He said, "Thanks for the ball, Dad, come on let's play
Can you teach me to throw", I said "Not today
I got a lot to do", he said, "That's ok"
And he walked away but his smile never dimmed
And said, "I'm gonna be like him, yeah
You know I'm gonna be like him"

And the cat's in the cradle and the silver spoon
Little boy blue and the man on the moon
When you comin' home son?
I don't know when, but we'll get together then son
You know we'll have a good time then

Well, he came home from college just the other day
So much like a man I just had to say
"Son, I'm proud of you, can you sit for a while?"
He shook his head and said with a smile
"What I'd really like, Dad, is to borrow the car keys
See you later, can I have them please?"

And the cat's in the cradle and the silver spoon
Little boy blue and the man on the moon
When you comin' home son?
I don't know when, but we'll get together then son
You know we'll have a good time then

I've long since retired, my son's moved away
I called him up just the other day
I said, "I'd like to see you if you don't mind"
He said, "I'd love to, Dad, if I can find the time
You see my new job's a hassle and kids have the flu
But it's sure nice talking to you, Dad
It's been sure nice talking to you"

And as I hung up the phone it occurred to me
He'd grown up just like me
My boy was just like me

And the cat's in the cradle and the silver spoon
Little boy blue and the man on the moon
When you comin' home son?
I don't know when, but we'll get together then son
You know we'll have a good time then

I kind of grew up listening to this song, there was a mix CD that we would listen to in the car on the way to softball tournaments that included all the classics: Harry Chapin, Frank Sinatra, Cat Stevens, etc. I’ve known the lyrics since I was probably ten; it’s just one of those songs.
This song can be taken very literally, about a happy little boy wanting to grow up to be like his father who has never made time for him, always promising for another day. But when another day comes, the son is all grown up and just like his father finding it hard to make time for him. When the general ‘storyline’ is translated into an intellectual meaning that stretches beyond fathers and sons, I feel that the meaning is to take time to enjoy your loved ones while you can, whether they are young or old. There are certain relationships that are really important to keep, and once damaged take a hell of a lot more to repair than others. Those are the relationships that you can’t put off to another day.
When you listen to the song, and you hear Chapin’s folky voice hit certain words a little lower and longer, it only emphasizes the lesson so to speak that needs to be taken away from the song. I think it’s an absolutely lovely song although I am quite biased.
Sidenote: Chapin was once quoted as saying “Frankly, this song scares me to death.”

March 27, 2011

On the Reservation...

Although there are many types of reservations, since we have just read Montana 1948, this blog will be specific to Indian reservations.

I’ll admit, I don’t know much about Indians, but I do believe it’s politically correct to say Native-Americans. Growing up I spent much time at my Grandparent’s house, and they had a room we all called the “blue room”, and yes it was painted blue, we were incredibly creative. The Blue Room served as my room many nights, and it was decorated entirely in the Native-American theme. Not the trendy tribal theme that’s present today, but actual Native-Americans. Chief Joseph hung on the wall, along with many other paintings, there was an incredible amount of pottery, and blankets, I’m surprised we didn’t call it the Indian Room. My Grandpa immersed himself in history, and often the history of Native-Americans.
He often wore clothing with Native-Americans depicted on it, and most of the time there was a puzzle of the painting shown above on the dining room table. Due to all this, I grew up thinking that my Grandpa had some Native-American blood in him, but whenever I asked him he replied that he was American (his last name was Ray and my mom has told me he was German). Growing up, that was all I ever really knew of Native-Americans.

I still don’t know much now, which I am moderately ashamed of, but Montana 1948 was an incredible book.

February 21, 2011

Propaganda 2011

I'm not entirely sure what to write for this,  I don't know if an example is necessary, I hope not because I can't find one so...

Whenever I hear the word propaganda I think of two distinctive images, the “I want you!” and the “We can do it!” posters, I'm sure you're very familiar with both. I think we'd all love to believe that propaganda is no longer prevalent in our society, but considering the title of this post is 'Propaganda 2011' I think it definitely is, and no, McCarthy isn't just sending us on a wild goose chase.

However, I don't think it's the same. Today it's more in campaign advertisements, or political cartoons, or art, not so much posters on every street corner. This is a difficult blog to write without contradicting myself. I'd love to say it isn't as in your face as it once was and that it's more subtle, but by being more subtle, it's even more in your face. And I'd love to say it's not nearly as creative, but some of the best examples are the most creative in art.

I suppose I should just leave this simply by saying it exists.

I'd love to leave a modern day example, but I think any example could be up for interpretation. I'd love to say this is a well done post, but I think that'd be a lie.

February 13, 2011

Beat Street

I’m not going to lie, when McCarthy put on Beat Street however many weeks ago, I honestly laughed. What this had to do with anything, I still don’t even know, but between the outfits and the lingo, I just had to laugh. Since then Beat Street still makes me laugh, but I’m really enjoying it.

My favorite part of the movie is probably the fact that it’s entirely filmed in New York City, which if you know me well; you know that I absolutely love that city. Don’t get me wrong, I’ll always be a Chicagoan at heart, but there’s just something about that city that I love, other than the fact that my sister lives there, so being able to see all of the city and subway is spectacular.

I also like that all the of cast are trying to fulfill something different of early hip-hop culture, DJs, MCs, break dancers, dancers, graffiti artists, producers, the movie’s got it all. Beat Street has a love story, Kenny and Tracy, a young teenager, Lee, and a soon-to-be family man, Ramo, and it also has some kick-___ dance battles and rhymes thrown in.

I still laugh at Beat Street, like the Santa’s Rap (that I just found on YouTube), and mainly the lovely track suits, but I’m really liking the movie. After all, it’s like a heartbeat, Beat Street!

February 6, 2011

Hungry for Attention?

Is Richard alone in his cravings? I’d vote no, everybody wants attention and some go to extreme lengths to get it. Using Richard as an example, he killed a cat and accidentally set his house on fire, and looking back on it he says he was just a little boy looking for attention. Of course his thoughts were subconscious; he didn’t light the curtains on fire thinking “now mom and dad will really pay attention to me!” he lit them on fire to see them burn; it’s almost as if he’s justifying his actions now. But then there are those who consciously do things for attention, like that one friend that we all have on Facebook that has a new profile picture of just themselves every other day, the one who posts a million statuses, the one who randomly IMs you and says “cmnt the pix! lolz, xox<3*!”, gag. They want the attention in the form of a wallpost or comment or even just a ‘Like’, they want it consciously.

Although attention fuels most of our actions, I think it’s important to differentiate between actions that are truly subconsciously attention driven and those that are using the need for attention as a cop out. But there isn’t a set formula for setting the two apart, it definitely depends on the person and situation. Personally, I think you can’t say that “oh, I acted out as a child because my parents were divorced”, or “because my sister got all the attention” or something of that sort, because when there are a million reasons telling you to do something wrong, there is still that one, simple reason telling you not to.

I think I overcomplicated this, shocker, but to put it simply, everyone needs attention, and if you’re not getting the right kind of attention you may go searching for the wrong kind.